While the summer before my senior year was still young, it was time for me to start conditioning and training for soccer season, like I usually do. But as the start of the season got closer and closer, I felt an unusual feeling. In the back of my mind, every time I would think about the upcoming season, I would get a feeling of dread and even anxiety. At first, I planned on doing soccer as usual despite these feelings. It was almost as if I felt like I had no other choice; that it was my only option because it’s what I had done my whole life. But then I realized I did have a choice, and I wasn’t being “forced” to do it like I felt. Now, don’t get me wrong, I LOVE soccer. I’ve played since I was seven years old. It’s just the stress of doing a fall sport and balancing all of my new schoolwork has always been somewhat of a struggle for me, and I didn’t really want to deal with it my senior year. Also, there is always inevitable drama on any sports team, with soccer being no exception. I’m not blaming anyone and I know it’s bound to happen, but I was kind of over that aspect of it. Similarly, it was a very young team this year, and it seems as if the younger players are preferred. Regardless of all the small issues that bothered me about doing soccer, the decision was purely my own. I did what I felt was best for me! It was indeed a very difficult decision, and I may or may not have even shed a tear over it. Also, when my friends found out that I wasn’t playing soccer in the fall, they were shocked. And when the season started, I was a little upset. However, to make up for it, I am playing in an Indoor league at Sahlen’s Sports Center. I’m very excited to get back into the game I love!!
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